Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Dance as if no one is watching!!


There are so many posts in my drafts mode, some needing just a touch up and some a write up... but this one needs to be written , right now right here!!
This is what music does to me...

I am waiting for the bus and plug in my headphones. One of my favorite dance number is on, I hear it once and it doesn't satisfy me, it never does! I turn off the radio and move to the music player with the album on repeat mode.. Once in office, the music fever is still on and I am almost at the verge of dancing in the lift.. No I am not a good dancer and yes I was the only one in the lift... The fever is on when I am applying my lip gloss and I quickly do a few moves in front of the mirror.... wooooooooooo..... That's what music does to me...

Just came back to my desk and the songs are still on repeat mode and I am enjoying every bit of it..
Am I the only odd one out or does it happen to you?
I feel intoxicated by music...
Do you too?  

Friday, November 14, 2014

Me..


I walk with my heart in my hands,
Ready to give love to all.
You came,
Made me feel special…
I gave my heart to you..
Little did I know, you’d take the liberty to break it..
And then give my broken heart back to me..
You smile with the world,
Laugh on their jokes..
For me all you have is bad words and tears..
The unrest grows,
Tears come no more…
Why should I anymore care for you,
Why should I bother?
Why should I live with the pain, when there’s a better world to go!
With heavy hands I pick up the pieces,
The memories shattering me even more…
The broken pieces pierce, the blood flows… so do the tears…
The memories I cherish come back to me…
But the pain is unbearable..
Should I let time heal and carry on or should I just move ahead and never look back!
The answer has never been simple, it never will be!
But a single life I have and that I gotta live…

Cannot wait all my life for that smile or that twinkle in your eye..
Cannot wait all my life for that touch or that cuddle…
Cannot wait all my life to get love back…
Cannot keep on giving without you responding back..
I am human, as flesh and bones as you are…
And it hurts… hurts to see a dark tomorrow!
You can simply put the blame on me, easily call me names,
Easily shun me out of your life, easily hurt me!
And I still don’t know what to do?
Should I let time heal and carry on or should I just move ahead and never look back!
The answer has never been simple, it never will be!
But a single life I have and that I gotta live…

I wanna be a bird to fly free,
I wanna be a painter, go ahead and paint my world green,
I wanna be a write, write down each word I feel,
I wanna be that little girl who smiles will all glee…
Fly with me if you want to, or please do set me free..
Coz a single life I have and that I gotta live…
No more do I carry my precious heart in my hands,
No more do I have any love to give..
A broken heart it is, A broken heart it will be!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Thoughts...


Lost in your thoughts,
Time comes to a stand still..
Sorrows bring tears,
Smiles widen with the happiness!
I changed,
You changed!
All left with me are the memories..
Memories I cherish and hold onto..
Memories I live for,
Thinking maybe some day..
They'd be our present not our past...

Lost in your thoughts,
Time comes to a stand still..
Tears flow for the times we have missed, for the times we fought!
The cold breeze dries away the tears, soothes and promises a better future.
All left with me are the memories..
Memories I cherish and hold onto..
Memories I live for,
Thinking maybe some day..
They'd be our present not just our past...

 

Friday, November 7, 2014

To "My Man"..

 The curtains swayed, the shining moon casting its shadow on your face.You curl up and cuddle the pillow. I pulled the comforter over you, a ritual I do every night. The warmth makes you feel good. As the curtains and the moon play hide and seek, I stare at your face, something I can get never enough of. You look at peace, innocent like a baby.. Behind this serene and youthful face is the man who takes over the burden of the house EMI, the car loan, work load and above all he handles me - be it in my worse times or my best or when I am just being me or when I am throwing tantrums! As I continue thinking about us, the memory lane doesn't look like a bed of roses, it never has been, the thorns prick badly and I need to stop thinking about the bad, but then how can you appreciate the good if you haven't seen the bad. I repent on the follies I did, at the same time forgive you for what wrongs you have done to me. After all, it is about accepting each other with the differences, as you always say.. And I am doing just that! Ofcourse we have our good times... and I hope we have many more to come. One thing I have learnt about myself and find it similar in both of us is the time we need for ourselves. I need my time to cool down or to just sit back and think over things and so do you! I need my time with my books and toys, as you do with your candy crush and your cell phone. We have learnt to respect each other's private time... and I find it much needed for us.
 You make me proud, you make me happy.. Sometimes you handle me well! Sometimes we don't agree.. But I guess these sometimes make life interesting! Not that I like fighting with you, but believe me I always try not to! But the bubble bursts under pressure. You are bad at gifting and you are making me bad at gifting too! Really :) I must have given you more gifts before marriage than I give you now... I don't what's it with you and gifts, but I love them as I love cards and flowers and no, they are not a waste of money and I read the cards before buying, I don't just check the drawing over it!! My cards are thoughtful and relate to the moment! We have our little secrets, you are a different "you" when you are with me as I am a different "me" when I am with you. I cannot wait to talk to you when you leave for office and when we come back home... Its keeps me moving! Your smile relieves me of the pressures!I am as bad at hiding emotions as good you are at it, but I guess that completes us..
 When I tell you I love you and I say it a million times and say it everyday,I dont say it out of habit.I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me and want to make you feel special! Cheers to the times together and cheers to the times to come, coz I know with you they'd be good and if bad times come, we'll fight them together! Be there for me, I will be there for you too.. I am sorry for the times I hurt you.. I'll try not to... Little did I know that you'd make me complete when we got married.. you are the only one who can tell me that I am wrong and also prove me wrong [even sometimes when I am not wrong!, such is your strength]....
 Too much of sugar can cause diabetes.. so I should stop now :P
 

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Suggest Suggest....


Hey all you wonderful people out there…
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I need to take a holiday… some much needed rest… The last week on November from the 22nd November till the 30th. Suggest a nice place…!!!
Goa is what is the default location, Jaipur/Udaipur are looking good to me.. any more suggestions from the blogosphere??

Monday, November 3, 2014

The client visit...

    If you are in I.T. or related to someone here, you’d know about clients coming over to India offices. To me it’s always been analogous to coming to office early, fancy lunches [which you’d just hear about maybe coz you are too low in the hierarchy] or going shopping with them to those fancy stores which sell clothes with Indian embroidery or other items which can be tagged “Indian”.
    A member from the client team came over today and is gonna stay over for 2 weeks. We knew he was coming but when/where/how wasn’t know till today morning. Today’s sunshine saw our offshore manager in office at 9am… like 9 am!!! He doesn’t really come to this part of our office, this secluded and confined place. Read about this office here! We knew something was wrong as he gave me a rude stare when I was dunking my oatmeal cookies into my cuppa. And by the time I enjoyed the dunken magic, another senior team member came to the stair case, which we now call our cafeteria and told me to go inside..because THE CLIENT IS COMING…
    Each time people called over to each other over their cubes or called onto each other for their morning dose of coffee/tea and gossip, we were told to be quiet and not take coffee breaks… because THE CLIENT IS COMING…
    Now when the client finally came, the manager escorted him to a conference room and we were introduced to him much later, when we had our head phones on and were in a call with the onsite coordinator! Imagine the disgust when you are talking to someone in a conference call and there are people standing on your desk!! Huh! And we had to pause the call and greet him before he was whisked away by the manager!... THE CLIENT HAS COME…
      As if everything was ok, we got an email with the following contents:
1.       Everybody to come office by 9 – 9:15 AM à no problem
2.       Avoid long coffee breaks and lunch breaks as this creates really bad impression on clients à Really!!!
3.       Avoid any unplanned leaves à Not that you let us take our planned leaves peacefully!!
4.       Avoid mobile calls as much possible and internet surfing during this time à Really!!
What are we like, in a school or something?? Lunch time saw everybody changing glances and laughing on the instructions and stares which we’d received from our manager! Now for a breather, I have this amazingly beautiful anklet which rings beautifully when I walk. It pleases me and isn’t too high to create disturbance.
And now linking my anklet to this “CLIENT HAS COME”… I was walking to the door and given that there is a pin drop silence observed, the anklet trinkling was being heard.. And I got that dreadful stare again!!
Hope I don’t get an email to not it wear it to office!!

Growing up or growing old or just growing bore...


1.       A couple of grey hair smiling gently on the scalp
2.       Hair volume reducing every day
3.       Slight fine lines on the face
4.       Inches and pounds adding up
5.       Need to rest on weekends rather than going out
6.       Preferring online shopping over the huge league of malls
7.       No window shopping
8.       No sense less calls, just talking sense
9.       Getting angry with the maid over ignoring the dirt
10.   Being unhappy with the cook coz he cooked something unexpected over telling him politely
11.   Thinking nonstop of the future rather than living in the present
12.   Adding a new album in my music gallery which reads “Peace” after a lot of albums “Rock”, “Hip Hop”, “Honey Singh”… etc and hearing “Peace” when I do actually hear music…
13.   Forgetting headphones at home and not feeling bad about it
14.   Not having configured the radio after getting a new phone even when its 2 long months
15.   No adrenaline rush on getting/buying a gift
16.   No hurry to download that song which I loved seeing on the T.V.
17.   No worry when someone is wearing the same top as I am
18.   Peace and calm when I see the top I had added to my wish list in “sold out”
19.   Not talking for a couple of hours and still being fine with
20.   No coffee and still not cribbing about it
21.   Not holding on to grudges and calling somebody just because I want to
22.   Not just reading, reading and understanding
23.   Taking that long walk home instead of hurrying
24.   Standing in front of the mirror, feeling disgusted about the dark blue top and changing into something which I think is more sober
25.   Closing the red lip stick and red nail paint in the closet…
26.   Feeling out of place with a bright cover for my cell phone
27.   Changing the font from comic sans to Arial
28.   Smileys and stickers being replaced by text messages
29.   Long text messages replaced by mono syllables
30.   Facebook open all the time to checking it once just for the sake of
31.   Wearing different shades of nail paint on toes and fingers and still being ok with it
32.   Wearing imperfect nail paint…
The list is unending... Do you also feel the same?
Am I growing old already?