Friday, April 4, 2014

'D' #A to Z Challenge

Dad... i miss u so much.. i am not strong.. i am a weak gal and i need u to hold me each time i fall... but u r no where near to do that.. why r the distances between us so far that i cannot even talk to you... i am dying to be with u... for u to hold me and tell me everything will be fine... the date still haunts me... our bike... the marks on the road, u,the hospital, the reports, the fir,the death certificate,the court cases, the life insurances... y did u leave us like this dad?? y dad? i need an answer...

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.


Thursday, April 3, 2014

'C' #A to Z Challenge

'C' is for 'Cindy'

Continuing our tradition of celebrating birthday's at 00:00, I was surprised when Dad did not turn up on my birthday till 11:45pm.. He came late, woke me up and wished me a happy birthday! but I was too sleepy and angry to respond. The next morning he told me to peep under my bed for my gift. To my surprise there was a huge gift pack, almost my size :) It took me an hour to carefully open the beautiful git wrap and to my complete surprise inside lay 'Cindy' , peacefully sleeping. My doll.... my sized doll! She smells awesome, that sweet plastic smell :) She slept with me, changed into my clothes when I wanted to wash hers and even sat on the dinning table for family lunch..
Awww.... I love you Dad and I love you Cindy!!
This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.


'B' #A to Z Challenge

'B' is for 'BIG BANG THEORY'.....
BAZINGAAAAA!!!


In love with the big bang theory show! Its was a custom for K and me to come home, cook and then eat food while watching this show... And no, it din't end at one show, it went on and on till our eyes drooped... Runs and re-runs of the same episodes.. and now we have almost learnt the dialogs :P and say them along when we see them! And this is not all, the mother too has been dragged in the dinner shows and now even she knows Penny and Sheldon!!

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

'A' #A to Z Challenge

'A' is for 'ANGER'
I am angry.. very very angry...
And I have no way out but to keep mum and carry on...
When I registered for the challenge and thought about the word I'd choose was "AWESOME"... but I am so angry that this just seems apt..
I am angry and I wanna blast out at you, for every wrong you are doing to me.. knowingly or unknowingly you have no idea how much this hurts! [I guess you do know you hurt me , that only makes you exponentially increase the hurt and harm]
No songs are soothing me, no words are making me calm, absolutely nothing is making this anger go.. but I know I don't have a choice.. I know I will have to let go.. I know I cannot tell you anything.. I know you won't hear... All I wanna know is whether you are worth all this pain...
Sad [for me, happy for you] but now my heart no more beats to the beats of love!

This post is a part of the A-Z blogging challenge.

Friday, March 28, 2014

The bill

She unlocked the car and saw the bills on the seat. Thinking he'd forgotten them she bought them to her work desk and asked him if he needed them. He answered in the negative telling her it was past office timings and it wouldn't be possible to pay them then.
When he dropped her home, she asked him if he'd keep the bills. He said she could keep them and he'd take them the next day..
The next day he forgot them, so did she.. In the evening he called and scolded her for not giving him the bill. He blamed her for the fine he'd have to pay, just because she was stupid enough to get the bills from the car. She din't know what to do. She got them up thinking he wouldn't have to go till the parking to get them. She thought he had forgotten them.. but anyways she got blamed... She kept the bills at his disk..
The next day she asked him if he had paid the bill, to which he replied bluntly that he din't. All he wanted to do was to clarify certain details... so all the anger for nothing she thought... she had almost cried over the previous evening..
The next day she asked him about the bill. The reply was straight and simple.. The issue had been clarified and no, it din't have anything to do with the office timings as he was to pay it online. And he was not even going to pay it before his pay day..
She wasn't left with any words..
Neither with any more self respect..
Tears flowed....

Sometimes..

Sometimes life just doesn't move the way you expect,
Sometimes the road is full of potholes,
Sometimes there are no roses , just thorns,
Sometimes there is no silver lining to the dark clouds,
Sometimes no matter how much you try whatever you do turns out to be incorrect,
Sometimes no matter how much you work , you won't get any appreciations,
Sometimes the maze you are stuck in will never have a way out,
Sometimes the game you play will always be won by the opponent,
Sometimes you won't have a say in your own life,
Sometimes people will be always be cruel and not care for you,
Sometimes you'll be stuck in between decisions which are both equally important,
Sometimes your life's biggest happiness will not be taken in consideration,
Sometimes you'll be left alone , crying to yourself,
Sometimes you'll find yourself with no way to move ahead on,
Sometimes you'll realize the relationship you think you are in, is a one sided one,
Sometimes you'll have no options in life,
Sometimes life will be so harsh that your tears will dry,
Sometimes you will have nothing else but pity for yourself,
Sometimes all you'll have is broken confidence and lost self respect,
Sometimes you'll paste that plastic smile just to let people think you are happy,
Sometimes the tide will always be strong whenever you wander near,
Sometimes there will be no stars to cheer you up when you glance in the night sky,
Sometimes you'll cry silent tears,
Sometimes there will be no one to wipe your tears,
Sometimes you'll feel you are a liability,
Sometimes all you'll have is sadness and you'll spread it around,
Sometimes the cartoons you draw will end up looking sad no matter how much you try,
Sometimes you won't be able to express yourself and the incomplete blogs would lie in the drafts,
Sometimes missed calls will stay unreturned and messages unanswered,
Sometimes life will be full of unanswerable questions,
Sometimes all you can do is sulk and repent,
Sometimes you'll be scolded for no mistake of your own,
Sometimes you'll be responsible for every wrong,
Sometimes no matter how much you love, all you'll get is hatred...

Hope such sometimes stay for some time and not become a lifetime...
Coz... at such times.. all you can do is QUIT!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Good bye Google reader! Hello Feedly!!

Goodbye Google Reader..
You will be thoroughly missed...
You were the only reason I met so many nice people and continued reading the jewels they wrote...
You are the only reason I could come back to a part of me which I had lost somewhere in the fight of engineering/job... the reader in me lives because of you :)

Hello Feedly!!
Now that I have imported my google reader data here, you have become an integral part of my life :)
I so hope I can update myself and read all the blogs I had missed over :)

Thankyou CM!! Your advice worked..